Airplanes of May

It's been like a month since I've posted on my blog.This one was actually written in days of May...I still want you to share my thoughts  on these.

These past few days, I was overwhelmed by unfortunate events........

Yes, I was coated with hatred and misery ....asking life , why shouldn't it be me??

There are things that just flowed and swallowed us, I've accepted it and it made my bones stronger.......There are things that are very gracious, very tantalizing and it didn't approached you, it turned you back.....and asked why ??

I'm going to share to you this song.,....it really inspired me and made me felt better.....

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now, a wish right now, a wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now, a wish right now, a wish right now

*Until now I've always waited for shooting stars and still hoped that there will be a little spark of miracle.

We all have wishes and desires, and we badly seek for it....

We even come up with a genie in a bottle that will give us three wishes......

We adore how it remains in our subtle chimera and

 we enjoy how we kept on waiting for the day of its reality.

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish

To go back to a place much simpler than this

Cause after all the partying and smashing and crashing

And all the glitz and glam and the fashion

And all the pandemonium and all the madness

There comes a time when you fade to the blackness

And when you're staring at the phone in your lap

And you hoping but them people never call you back

But that's just how the story unfolds

You get another hand soon after you fold

And when your plans unravel in the sand

What would you wish for if you had one chance?

So airplane airplane sorry I'm late

I'm on my way so don't close that gate

If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight and

I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

* what is it like when you are already on the cloud 9 of your dreams.? what is it like when you have a ll the fame and fortune....I know it won't feel good at all....We need to pay the prize...I do aim high but at the same time I keep on thinking and reminding myself that fame, fortune, those deceiving lights,sweet words,and traitor claps they can pull you down and eventually leave you on despair. The lyrics of the song is very true, could we wish for more ? when curtains fall and you see your shadow weeping in the center stage, what would you wish for? Would you wish for time to spin back? or would hope that these life you've inced wished for would just vanish like a candle being blown?

Yeah somebody take me back to the days

Before this was a job before I got paid

Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank

Yeah back when I was trying to get a tip at Subway

And back when I was rapping for the hell of it

But nowadays we rapping to stay relevant

I'm guessing that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Then maybe oh maybe I'd go back to the days

Before the politics that we call the rap game

And back when ain't nobody listened to my mix tape

And back before I tried to cover up my slang

But this is for Decatur what's up Bobby Ray

So can I get a wish to end the politics

And get back to the music that started this shit

So here I stand and then again I say

I'm hoping we can make some wishes outta airplanes

*I know there will come a moment in which we to make our choice. But whatever choices we make, we should not regret on it but instead face whatever are the consequences. Choices may make you blue, but with a Strong Faith and blissful spirit this once wrong choice could end up right. We may be stuck in an awful maze but we shouldn't allow ourselves to be caught up...instead we need to find the way, bewildering it may be, but we need to try to find that exit and could finally get a new start.

There is no rewind button, pause nor fast forward......all we can do is face it and get it fixed.

This was once my thought.....

I wanna run.but where??? I wanna crawl and hide but where's the haven?I've been asking myself why I don't get happiness? what does really make me happy?? just before , just in a seconds ago I was so blissful and sunny and suddenly when the doors shutdown I become gloomy and dark feather

Sometimes I want to be numb.I want to feel nothing....But this is reality.It is painful and no matter how hard i try drifting my mind to my own utopia....there is always a pinch of reality.....and I can't escape it.....

I'm facing it but I'm trembling on it....I admit I am weak and only God can carry all the pain inside me.......

I've been childish.....selfish..........I've been counting the blessings I have......But actually what matters to me is the respect that people will give to me.Sometimes it is heart wrenching to make fool of yourself just to put a smile on a frowning face. . And I hate myself for being unfair to me.......For being coward and just accepting those things.but what can I do???? that's all I can do....

Do we have the right to question????? when we knew that everything will be settled in the right time.

I've been patiently waiting and sometimes I got tired of it.....but should I give up on dreaming??? I don't know...We can't get what we always want......

I know for sure God sets the right time for us......