The month of April is really getting much hotter here in the Philippines, sometimes I would just imagine I'm in another country enjoying the breeze of wind and the blow of snow. To have a little serenity this one desert like day, I went to my cousin's house, well originally I was supposed to company her in the university where I am currently studying to take an entrance test. The appointment was cancelled and so she suggested me to watch the Japanese TV drama one litre of tear.My friend before has told me about a story of a teenage girl who suffered in an incurable disease. My friend was talking about the Japanese TV adaptation of Aya Kito's diary. One litre of tears, by the title alone it was clear-cut that the show is a heavy drama, and the title alone made us glimpse of emotions in the story.

"To be able to smile and tell everyone this; i have, at least, cried one litre of tears. "

Aya Kitō was a Japanese girl who wrote a diary about her experience with spinocerebellar degeneration disease. Her life story is very inspiring. She was very brave to fight her disease. Aya's character was like a glowing light in a dark arena. She was full of hope .

It was truly heart-rending, the day her parents knew about her disease and it was more remorseless when Aya herself have known her disease. It is truly mortifying to know taht one day you wouldn't be able to walk, eat, talk and wake up...

Why did the disease choose me? I cannot carry it, if it's just for the word "fate".

With these words coming out from her polite lips, crystal tears fell from her eyes. It is truly hard for someone to accept the gruesome truth. As I watched these scene I imagined those people who also have incurable disease and to those people who were just victims and suffer from pain.

I would confess that sometimes I think God is unfair, life is unfair..I thought that there are just things that people don't deserve, I though sometimes why is it that those good people often suffer while others who just don't care and do evil things didn't even have an inch of despair.

Yes, even though I don't have a disease I have questioned, why this kind of life have chosen me?

Purpose driven Life is a book I have read when I was in high school. In that book I have understood life,it's trial's,test, and its temporary assignments. Everything happens for a purpose. Some say if God doesn't do any harm to people then why such accidents and tragedies happen? I say that it is the people who are unfair,it is the people who are shaping its own harm. There are things that we don't understand why it exist, there are situations that sometimes we don't understand why it occurred but one thing is for sure, everything happens for a good reason.

"As I think about the past,the tears will come out.Reality is too cruel, too brutal.I don't even have the right to dream.As I think about the future,the tears will come out again."

I cried and cried for every episode of this TV drama, I felt pity for Aya, she was so good, she was a basketball player in her school and has many plans in the future but the disease took away all her imaginations of the good future.

Some people just took granted of what they have, the family,their potentials and their body, not even thinking that thee are many hopeful dreamers who wished for what they have. In aya's story I have learned to value what I have. Unlike Aya, I can say I didn't have a good memory of the past but I always have a big picture of the future. Every time I reminisce of the past it let my heart tormented.Yes reality is too cruel and brutal and humans are selfish. I think that is why fairy tales and happy endings were written to let people forget the pain and wounds brought by reality, to at least for a little time drift in a world of happiness and gave everyone a chance to continue dreaming.

"I'm glad I came (to Higashi High School again),because it reminded me,the 15-year old me,

was indeed, alive here."

Aya kept on writing her diary even it was physically painful to make it as an evidence that she is alive.

It was heart wrenching to know that a 15 year old was once a blossoming rose but as the sun sets it turned pale. Even though she was only 15, it didn't stop her from living. What really inspires me on Aya is her courage, her courage to wake up everyday and smile top people even though she is carrying a sad letter.She was always alive

"The flower petals are opening up,each one more than the other.The flowers will once again blossom in full glory.Knowing yesterday what will happen to them today,made me happy.""Just that one sentence, 'I won't leave you',encouraged me a lot.Doctor, thank you for not leaving me."

I think everybody needs encouragement. What is wonderful about Aya, she influenced people and encouraged them. When we re down and in deep trials we always hope because there are people who can we count on. yes even just a smile or a single word it will light up the world. Everybody needs someone , because we can't live alone, because we need reflections and a rod that will keep us look straight.

Sometimes people would even create a lie just to take away the pain and keep the light .The whole point is, we care for each other that's why we don't leave someone behind. Isn't it great when we knew those people around us won't leave us . It is one trait of humans we should always nourish and share , standing by our family, friends, partners or even strangers.

I want to build a time machine and revisit the past. If it weren't for this disease, I might even be in love. I want to cling to someone's arm so badly.

This line let my tears overflow again. Everybody is chasing for love and in Aya's situation she seems to think of it as only a dream. I admire Asou , her friend and classmate who turned to be her love interest.

In this world Humans are only actually searching for love, they may do good and evil but in the end of the day they kept on thinking of Love.

There are just times that you want something badly and you are waiting for it patiently but as the rain comes and the sun shines it seems to be not coming. And for sure we knew what it felt like and I think that feeling, Aya felt it too.

* Even though I have been hurt before by those heartless glares this also helped me to understand that around me, there still exists some gentle glares. Therefore, I definitely won't run away. That's what I'll do. Definitely. Always.

I have experienced that sometimes , there are some just glances that seems to be saying they are disgusted and I it felt so bad. When people see something unusual they would look straight to it, stare to it so deeply. But sometimes people don't know that these glance are hurtful. Yes it is true there are some glances that are kind and we knew from the heart that they want to help us .Aya was so strong to keep on smiling to them and just ignore their eye's judgements. It was grateful that Aya was smart and understanding.

* People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.

Yes this is absolutely true, we shouldn't prison ourselves in the past. Yes there memories of the past that could haunt us but we should let those experiences be a teacher on us. There are also memories in the past that are worth remembering and we should let it remind us of happiness. Past already existed, it is already written and we can't do anything from it but today and tomorrow we could do the right thing. Today and tomorrow make the best out of it because sooner it will be a memory and isn't that great to always remember good things? We need to keep moving forward.

* Where should I head towards? Even if there isn't answer, I'll feel better by writing it down. I've looked for a pair of helping hands but I couldn't feel them, couldn't see them. I only face towards darkness and hear hear the sounds of my hopeless screams.

Writing was the only ability that keep Aya living. And no matter how hard it was for her she used all her strength to write down what she felt and thought.

"Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing."

* If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...I'm alive.

I think this is a line that most people forgot to recognize. To breath everyday is indeed a wonderful thing.To enjoy God's creations is a wonderful gift.

It is sad to know that there are people who don't value life, after watching aya's story it made me realize how blessed I am. I am blessed because at 15 I was able to do things that I can. I am blessed because i have my legs, my arms, I could walk, run, write and post a blog. I am blessed because like Aya I have my family and friends. I am blessed because like aya , God is with me.

It is also sad when I see people doing all those vices that could damage their health, yes they enjoyed it for a night or a day or a week , a month and more years but it will bring darkness to them in a lifetime. I just couldn't understand why people abuse what they have. I mean we could enjoy the pleasures but there's no need to over do it. Are we that selfish? we can't get contented of enough? but is enough , enough for them? It is so sad that they couldn't think that when they got those disease it is their loved one who will suffer more. It is so sad that they couldn't appreciate time. Aya was afraid of time , because she knew anytime something is gonna happen. Why is it then , there is Aya who loses her dreams yet continue to strive and why is then other people who has everything and yet keep on throwing them. Life is beautiful and the sand grain is turning to ashes. What a wonderful world we have. Let's enjoy it , we have a lot of time to do good things. Life is yours don't waste it.

Urgent....Alarming....Save the Dolphins

This is the sad news that I've seen on a note in Facebook......this is so unbelievable

I GOT THIS FROM A MAIL. I WAS DEVASTATED. :'((

The sea is stained in red and its not because of global warming.

It's because of the cruelty that the human beings to the smart Calderon Dolphins.

This happens every year in Faroe Island in Denmark. In this slaughter, the main participants are young teens. To show that they are adults and they are already mature.

In this big celebration, nothing is missing for the fun. Everyone is participating in one way or the other, killing or looking at the cruelty “supporting like a spectator”

Is it necessary to mention that the Calderon Dolphins, like all the other species of dolphins, in it’s near extinction. They get near men to play and interact. In a way of pure friendship.

They don’t die instantly; they are cut 2 to 3 times with thick hocks. At that time the dolphins produce a sound extremely attuned to the cry of a new born child.

The Dolphins dies slowly soaked in its own blood

We will send this mail until this email arrives in any association defending the animals.

PLEASE HELP ME STOP THIS TERRIFYING AND NONSENSE CRUELTY!!! PLEASE REBLOG.

- FRANZ HILARIO

 
This is really terrifying.......there should be an immediate action for this

Alice in Wonderland

It is a halcyon siesta time, an ideal peiod to thinka nd write. I assume people would like to have an amity of mind and reflect this Holy Week.Some may be now on a waggling hammock, or laying on the grains of sand , settling on a bench in the park or kneeling down in a prayer room.

      The start of the week was not that kind to me. I just received my not so cool final grades.I've got a terrible wound on my knee. I've slip on the floor and got this ugly lesion and eventually will also be a monstrous scar. It was like my firs grotesque imprint of physical pain, I never had serious wounds when I was a kid because I never run and run or sprouting on trees. As a child I always stayed on my safety blanket.

When I reminisce my childhood experiences, it was just like a black and white photo. I never really had fun, I was like a girl just sitting under a tree ,kept on thinking and fell asleep.

I wish I could ride back on time, and hound some adventures. It was troglodytic and moth-eaten, there were only a few kids on our neighborhood and I was the only girl of my age. I had 2 cute cousins but I didn't want their barbies and cooking set. I wanted to fly kites and get up on the fence, but it didn't happen.

As I could see the children today, they are most likely to stay home and played PSP or plant against the zombies. Yes online games are now the children's playground. . Oh my they just missed the fun and excitement in the wonderland. I guess the best of being a child is being like Alice.

To brighten my day up I watched Alice in Wonderland. Johnny Depp is my paramount chimera character. He is great as always , Johnny has his own way of enchanting the viewer's hearts..I would never forget willy wonka, Jack Sparrow and of course the Mad Hatter.

I remember my self before looking for mushrooms and talking to the white rabbits. Alice was then 7 years old believing it was wonderland when actually it was under land. In the film adaptation of the classic fairy tale by Lewis Carroll, Alice is now 19 years old and returns to the under land to slay the Jabberwocky ( a bird controlled by the Red Queen)

Yes, in this world there is a paradise and a swollen trap. I guess everywhere you go there is a great probability of danger.This world is a million coins of hidden codes. Yes life alone is a mystery that everybody is trying to figure out. We are so curious about so many things, we keep on questioning and chasing the most impossible answers.Out of our curiosity we become creative and created a century of theories.

The Mad Hatter: There is a place. Like no place on Earth. A land full of wonder, mystery, and danger! Some say to survive it: You need to be as mad as a hatter.

Sometime we are just too attach on the walls that we failed to enjoy the wonder of life. People become so unaware of time and prison their selves on the bricks of intelligence.

Why couldn't we just love all the creations on this Utopia and be thankful. I guess people  really can't get contented on what they have and on what they have known. Unless people would discover their existence they would continue to wander and run across the field of temptations.

Competition is a huge vocabulary, it drives people to be diligent,to be hopeful and give out the best shot but sometimes it drives people to be selfish, to hurt other people and be a danger of the society.

We don't need to be mad to survive in the competition. Anger is only one letter away from Danger. When we are mad we could only think on what we feel and sometimes we couldn't know what is right and wrong. It is most advisable to not make decisions when were mad. Being mad is natural but we gotta put it in the right phase and we shouldn't let it overdone us.

There was a good side of the mad hatter in the movie, he was like the protector of Alice and I honestly couldn't associate his character anymore as the mad hatter portrayed before. the mad hatter in the movie was more sensible and compassionate. I applaud his loyalty to the White queen and his courage to put down the Red queen. I think in this life we gotta be the mad hatter, even though we already have fallen it doesn't mean that we are already defeated and even when we are defeated it doesn't mean that it is the end. I think mad hatter is like being conquering all fears and just face all those foes.

Alice:What is the use of a book, without pictures or conversations?

Yeah,,, I think this line is best suit to Alice in wonderland. The story would be nonsense and boring with out those fancy images and sumptuous conversations.

In the movie, graphics was a massive element, the make-ups,fashion and the whole wonderland gave me an awe. The huge strengh of the movie was on the graphics, I didn't even care to understand the movie story but I never did loose an eye on the screen.

For me the book is a metaphor of our lives. our life would be useless with out those pictures and conversations. Life would be truly unfulfilled if we don't use our imaginations, our talents and potentials into something useful. Life would be all black if we don't share our moments with each other. Life is a wonderland and it is nothing with out the author "God". But the wonderland on earth is only temporary because the true wonderland , the true paradise is the life with God........

Blessed Holy Week!