Who am I in my past life?

It was a rainy afternoon when my siblings have a not so serious conversation about our future. And I have this brother , our only brother, who was saying that he knew who we were in our past lives.
This brother of mine is going to proceed in Law and I must say he really has a tongue. He can be a great story-teller. We often debate on ideas and philosophies , well I studied psychology and we always have contradicting opinions.

Interestingly , I want to hear on my story on my past life. Well before that , he had made some predictions on our future . In fact he predicted that my sister is going to marry an american guy and my sister , eventually did. He was actually right on some of his little predictions on us. I don't know he does it but he is so convincing.

So moving on , this is my story in my past life according to him.

I was born in mainland China. I was the only child and my father was a merchant while my mother was a housewife. My family has a simple life and we were satisfied about everything. I mostly stayed at home , assisting my mother. But there came a very unfortunate event , my father was robbed and killed.

With out any choice my mother raised me alone. She didn't knew about livelihood so instead she married an older man. But living with a step father and knowing that my mother will never loved him made me mad that I ran away from home.

And there being like a stray dog , I walked on the streets with no shelter. Then I worked on circus-like ( in which in this time , according to my brother has no religion or God) and I have made friends with some gypsies and some thieves. And I became just one of them , stealing bread and loaves and was an ultimate outcast. But later on I have realized the hardships of my father , I have thought about my mother and that I want to get away from living like a rat.

I went home to return and  ask forgiveness from my mother but it was too late , she was dead long ago by the whipping and beating of his husband. It was tragic , I never have held her hand before she died and i never thanked her for keeping me alive.

Years after her husband died too who had left a great fortune and I was entitled to them. But I have a step sister , the legitimate child , and she doesn't want any of the fortune to be shared with me.

I fought for my right , sought help to the government but the government have favored her . The government have done nothing but collecting and keeping the money of the people. What else to do my step sister has golds , she can buy their decisions. I was furious about what happened. On how unfair society and the government was. On how the outcast were treated. I was heading a revolution a bloody revolution.

The Government were trembled and there I was having an encounter with my step sister , she was begging for mercy but I was ruthless and so I beheaded her. And through the encounter of the soldiers , I died. I died with so much pain in the heart. I died without any lover , I died without being loved and had never loved a man,

And my brother told me that , the reason I was reincarnated was that because in my past life all I have been suffering and pain. And that is why I lived again to understand and experience happiness.

It was a short explanation but truly it was meaningful and honestly I kinda believe it. Many times I have thought that I was not meant to live to be happy but was meant to live to sacrifice and be in agony. That sometimes it is hard for me to be happy because it seems that I am so used in loneliness.And honestly I felt like I was never  to loved anyone (romantically).t is just sometimes I can not introspect.

And probably yes, I was meant to be reinvented to experience happiness. Well most people thought I am a happy person because I always smile and seems to have no worried but deep inside I am crushed with sorrows,

I asked my brother how he knew who I was and what was my life , He said he had this natural talent that he can see things from the past. And he said if he was lying he would have stuttered telling the story but he didn't and he was so confident. But still I was thinking he could have thought of it earlier. He's just a quick thinker.

But whether my brother was only telling me a good story or not , I can say that we are all given second chances to fulfill a life .

The idea of reincarnation always intrigues me. I have to say , yes I partly believed it. Sometimes it just felt like we have lived before. Have you ever met someone and suddenly you just felt that you knew that person very well and you have met him/her somewhere? Well I have felt that many times. I always asked my self what have I done in the past that caused me to be living like this?

Well I know it may just be a feeling but it is really a mystery. Well in the book of Paulo Coelho "Brida' well I have not finished reading the book but I have read some parts of it. It was about the reincarnation of two lovers ( a mage and a witch craft). As I was reading those parts although it is a fictional novel it seems so real.

I was asking my self, what if there is actually no hell but God give us second chances and that Hell could be actually the earth. that we are reinvented until we become the perfect form. Well, I really don't know much about reincarnation , so anyone could post a comment here and share to me about that philosophy. So who were you in your past life?

Whoever I was and whatever I have experienced in my past I could not remember it .What matters now is live in the present and make the most out of it...To experience Happiness..

S.M.Y (2012)

Doomed Veronica

Bayan ni Juan

Today is June 12, the day that Philippines has proclaimed its freedom against Spain

It's been 114 years since then…Now how is the Free Philippines Today?

On my own observation some Filipinos are living well, some suffered from poverty, many are growling over corruption, a thousand are jobless, and some are just care-free. Do we live in the essence of being free today? Do Filipinos still value the Freedom we have attained or have we buried it in the ground?

Let’s define Freedom first, according to dictionary.com freedom is the state of being free  or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint.

In that context yes Philippines is free. But did we really gain freedom?? Well one of my teacher said that freedom and democracy is only an idea, it never exist. It made me think yes indeed there's no absolute independence. After we have been freed form the Spaniards we were captured by the Americans then the Japanese. Philippines have been a slave, a prisoner and up to now I can say that Philippines still lives as a puppet. We still live in Constraints.

Was freedom truly a gift? I’ve heard some teens before saying that it was better if we were under the American colony and Philippines could be very rich by now. But I answered it back we will never appreciate the importance of a thing until it is taken back to us. If we were under American colony we would have lost our identity and our culture. We will never know what worst could happen in that time if we don’t raised that flag. Such pity that there are still young ones who are willing to be under the shadow of giants, to serve as a mere meek reflection.

I love my dear country, I adore my country, admire it and I am proud of it, these were few lines that were mentioned by many Filipinos but do they really mean those words???

As part of the celebration we commemorate also the 150’Th year of Jose Rizal on June 19. Rizal is our national hero and we consider him as our savior from Spanish cruelty and he symbolizes our freedom.

Before that let's start off with the legendary character Juan de la Cruz...Juan dela Cruz symbolizes Filipinos

According to Wikipedia Juan dela Cruz is the national personification used in the Philippines to represent the "Filipino". The name, Spanish for "John of the Cross", is roughly the equivalent of the American Uncle Sam and John Doe. Juan dela Cruz is usually depicted wearing the native Salakot hat, Barong Tagalog, long pants, and slippers (called Tsinelas in Filipino). The term Juan dela Cruz is also used when referring to the collective Filipino psyche.

Well in our history class I have known for teh first time the origin of Juan de la Cruz...

There was this one young boy, with no name, he was passing by when the Guardia civils were looking at a dead man's body and automatically Juan was imprisoned .He was illiterate, he was innocent but because he can't defend his self and because he was an Indio he was  put behind bars. That was the cruelty of Spaniards a long time ago and that's how defenseless Filipinos were before. That young boy was later named Juan dela Cruz, because his life symbolizes the Filipinos. Juan was the most common name being used in the Philippines at that time and dela Cruz to signify the religiosity of the Filipinos. Then another name arrived, “Juan Tamad” it is beloved that the Spaniards were the ones who used that term to cover up their cruelty. They insisted that Filipino suffers because they are lazy. It is unfortunate that some just accepted this label. For me it is untrue, Filipinos are one of the most hard working people and for the question on why we have a slow progress, I believe it is not because of laziness but rather because of this wrong system.

 Filipinos were meek because they were deprived form their rights, imagined that being ignorant in your homeland, the friars have distorted the cognition of Filipinos letting them believe that only through church and only through them they can enter Heaven.

And so in the day of 12th of June in kawit Cavite, Filipinos were victorious, for the first time they had broken the chains and that marked the end of Spanish cruelty.

With the American colonization, Juan was set free...........

But then again there is no absolute freedom, yes we have been in flight but did not evade the sufferings

Well I can say there was much less suffering in American era and thanks to them that Spaniards flew away form our land but still at that time we remained prisoners....we have no sole right for our country...and the war continued,,,,,,,,,,and now we have we what we called our Philippines

 No one is conquering us and we hold the right for our country but our own Philippine society has become our own bars...We are still trap in the system.....

In the day of our independence, we thanked the heroes for their blood, courage and love for the nation. And one of it is Jose Protasio Rizal Mercado y Alonzo Realonda or better known as Dr.Jose Rizal (who was actually not a doctor, he was only named as a doctor because he performed many surgeries)

Rizal, we admire him, we want to be like him, and he is the national hero

Many times that he’s title as a national hero is being asked...Why not Andres, why not Emilio or Graciano?

Who was really Rizal??In the book by Abeth Ocampo it is revealed that no one will know who truly Rizal is because the Rizal we knew is a combination of fact and fiction and I agree on this......

I suggest you would watch bayaning 3rd world to have a different viewpoint of Rizal

There was once a question on was Rizal was a fence sitter??? was he really for the revolution or was against it...his named was used in KKK h was the head of the org and he did not know this...His name serves as the secret password of the revolution but the truth is he never participated in any activity of the KKK...Pio Valenzuela who was a physician was assigned by Andres Bonifacio to ask guidance from Rizal regarding the revolution ...he had different statements in his accounts..At first he said Rizal was strongly against for the revolution but later on he altered it and said that Rizal was for the revolution it is just that Filipinos should wait for the right time because they are not yet ready........

My stand on this is whether he was against or pro for the revolution....he was still a hero for me....He was the catalyst of the revolution......if not because of his writings no one would dare...he showed bravery ...he was fearless in divulging the truth and he inspired the Filipinos to do something......It has been said that even before and up until now Filipinos are submissive, we just agree on what the higher says and we always remain silent even though we had enough..Have we really learned to suffer in silence?? Suffering will forever endure if it is not uttered...RE WE AFRAID?? Or is it just that we thought that there could nothing be done for this to end or is it just the belief that only God can solve our sufferings??? I am a believer and I do know that with God everything is possible,,,but isn't that too much of work for God to solve every tiny flaw in our lives?? who's responsible for it anyway?/ my point is the culture of palaging umaasa has not yet faded....we need to be very hopeful everyday but we also need to use our minds, hands and everything we have to break the chains.....

We don't need to just wait for a miracle and we don't need to put all the blame in the government...First and foremost we are responsible of whatever happens in our life....We can do something about it......And That what were Rizal brought to those Filipinos before he let them know that what the Spaniards are doing are not righteous that they need to do something that they need to get away of those false beliefs.......

I don’t know but up until now friars are still alive in the church...I can never fully understand the system in the church...I could still see the hypocrite Pharisees...there are only few priest whom I truly respect and trust although many of my friends says that we should never question the priests because they are servants of God...

And I don't like system too of not questioning, it is only when we question we could truly understand and be free ....if we don't question, we won’t' seek, we won’t ask we will never know........

Happy Independence Day................Rizal shouldn't only be a memory nor June 12, it should be looked at as a virtue......we have this freedom and we should not took it for granted...we have this now and we should take care of it. It has always been repeated that we can be heroes in our own way. Now do your own thing, you have Freedom!!!......

Sun Rise

Three stars and a sun, engraved in Juan's Arms
The ink remained, the pain is visible, it will never fade
But the memory of the brave is buried in the grave
At dawn he waits for the rising sun to alight

The jeepney intrudes the whistling sound of the night
The child mourns and weeps in the cradle of filth
Even with closed eyes, they are still waiting for the rising sun
Will it ever come? What happened to the beaming sun?

The begging, the pleading, it's all bleeding
Still gazing at the grain of sands
The time has travelled through the glass
Juan ,unawakened ,comforted by the blind sight

Bow down before the stouts
We ousted them, yes we ousted them
But the chains are not yet broken
Still tied up in the swollen lane

Like a child holding the kite
Running towards the greener field
Competing against the bright lights
But the stage have left them behind

They have become the pawns, gambled by the play of supremacy
The flag was raised but why do we remain in languish?
Poisoned in the lethal mindsets, paralyzed in the culture of convergence
Can we still see the rising sun,
When Juan has chosen to play the blind, deaf and mute?

3 idiots (I)

All is Well

Movie plot

Two friends (R. Madhavan and Sharman Joshi) embark on a quest for a lost buddy. On this journey, they encounter a long forgotten bet, a wedding they must crash, and a funeral that goes impossibly out of control. As they make their way through the perilous landscape, another journey through memory lane and the story of their friend - the irrepressible free-thinker Rancho (Aamir Khan), who in his unique way, touched and changed their lives. It's a story of their hostel days that swings between Rancho's romance with the spirited Pia (Kareena Kapoor), and his clash with an oppressive mentor, Viru Sahastrabudhhe (Boman Irani). And then one day, suddenly, Rancho vanishes....
Who was he? Where did he come from? Why did he leave?
The friends who influenced and inspired them to think creatively and independently, even as the conformist world called them three idiots. Where is the original idiot now?
Finally, in misty mountains of unparalled beauty, the friends find the key to the secret.
Three idiots is a comedy of ideas that is as provocative as it is funny, as wildly entering as it it insighful. A laugh-riot that talks about the most important of human pursuits; self-actualization.

Source: Nilesh P. Khandare(02 Nov 2009)

This movie was released in India in year 2009 and it gained as the highest-grossing film in its opening weekend in India and has the highest opening day collections for a Bollywood film.

So this is the movie that people are talking about. When I asked my friends what good movie to watch they quickly replied me with “3 idiots”.  From the title itself, I knew it would be somehow a comedy flick but I never thought it would be a Hindi film. Yes, I though it was an American movie. Well lately I’ve been enjoying myself watching some Kdaramas, Thai movies and now a Hindi film. (But I always love Pinoy Movies.hehhe) .I feel like I have explored the different cultures through movies, series and music. Although I haven’t been out of the country I feel like I have touched the different lands of Asia.

Well, years ago I was captivated by the Hindi music, I am always amused by their dance and it is actually my first time to see a Hindi film. Well who could not forget slum dog millionaire? Yes it was a movie in a Hindi setting but it was made and produce by British film makers.

3 idiots is not like any other film. It’s not on 3d , it has no special effects , no grand costumes and was not released internationally but it has a magnificent story  which will surely touch your heart. I’ve been laughing and crying the entire film but above all, in each scene I have learned and realize the important things in life. 

There are different types of movies, there are Movies that made you think, movies that made you aware, movies that urged you to imagine, movies that inspired you, movies that purely entertained you and movies that satisfied your pleasure. Three idiots is a movie that contains all the basic ingredients with special spices, it is a unique recipe.

Free as the winds as he

Like a soaring kite was he

Where did he go? Let’s find him

Stumbling, rising carefree

Living each moment to the fullest

He who touched our hearts and vanished

Never hesitating to swim against the tide

He was our dearest friend

These were the lines form the opening song in the movie, and indeed the song fully depicts the movie. Yes Rancho was a no worry man but he stood with his convictions. He was different from others. Farhan and Raju were his closes friends and together with Chatur “the silencer” they brought back the memories of Rancho and with those memories they tried to trace where Rancho is.

Life is a race if you don’t run fast you will be like broken anda..(Rancho mimicking Virus)

In the movie Virus (The head of their school) also have taught his students that life is a race and run fast or you will be trampled. Rancho disagreed to this. I got amuse in a scene where in virus was very mad at Rancho and he let him teach engineering in a class. Rancho asked the students including his professor to search for a word for 30 seconds. All the people in the class got panic and were rushing to find the word but in the end they found out that the word doesn’t exist and was only taken from the name of his friends. Rancho questioned them on whether they were so curious when he let them find the words or were they interested because they are going to learn something new. Rancho said they were all in a hurry; this is an academy not a pressure cooker. Yes in this modern living we are all caught up by pressures. And I guess this happens in some academies, instead of teaching lessons that can be applied in the real world, students are taught to be on a race. When I asked some of my friends on what have they learned for their 3 years in college they can’t even give an answer, they would just state that “as long as I pass and got a diploma then that is good”. Some of my classmates are even stating that we could only actually learn after we graduate college. Then my question is what college is for? Are we only investing money for nothing? Well in my case I must admit in the first two years some of the lessons just ran out of my ears, I got good grades not because I truly understand it but because I took time to memorize it. And that is reality for me, memorize and erase well maybe I could remember a little but truthfully I also feel like I am going to only really learn after graduation. And most of us are always thinking of time, thinking of time to graduate on time because of we don’t want to get behind. But is that really the best? I don’t know the answer.

These engineers are very smart sir, they didn't invent a machine which can measure the pressure on brain. If one such machine they would have made, we would have come to know this not a suicide but a Murder.

This is the line said by Rancho when talking to virus about the incident that happened to Joy. Rancho was actually trying to help Joy but it was too late since he hung himself on a rope. Yes Joy was pressured to produce a machine, the helicopter, and he end up ending his self. On his wall the words “I quit” were written.

Give me some Sunshine
give me some rain
Give me another chance
wana grow up once again

These were the lines form the song Joy sung before he ended his life. It seems to be that he was pleading for one more chance. Virus didn’t give him another chance to prove the machine he invented. We all deserve chances; even the most wrong person deserves a second chance. Sometimes the society is too harsh, and yes it is already a system. The labeling is a killing system. When a person commits an unacceptable act people would put that person inside a box and put a name on it and everyone would remember that person by the labeled name. Even though a person does a thousand wonderful things but by a single mistake he/she could be condemned. Isn’t that unfair and too cruel? Suddenly people would forget the good things by just one single mistake. And I guess that is why we really need to be careful with our actions; it is the same thing with reputation and trust. It takes years to be credible and to have a high reputation but by just one wrong hoop it goes back to zero.

Everybody needs and deserves a second chance because I always believe that in every man’s bad heart there is always a good piece of it, it just need nourishment and eventually that good piece would grow and conceal the bad part. Every body needs a chance to prove one’s self because everyone deserves a spotlight and because everyone is a lead character.

 Yes the pressure is very powerful it could motivate or shut down a person.

Morally, we could say suicide is wrong because we have no right to end our own life and we have the obligation to preserve and take care of life. But yes in some points I do agree with Rancho it is because of the system. In the movie students are expected to be the best. Joy was almost on his triumph for his project but Virus ignored it because it was not on time. 

One of my teacher before said that those people who committed suicide are actually weak because they can’t handle the problem anymore they just surrender. But I think if only the people around them if only the society were supportive enough then I think they could have not think of ending their lives..Each people need a support system because no man is an island.  And I don’t understand why some other people are imposing their wants to the younger one, just like in the case of Fahran, truly his fate was sealed when he was born. His father decided to let him be an engineer when in fact Fahran loves photography. Sometimes because we worried so much of what people think of us, because we wanted to have a good and fragrant name we tend to be selfish. We tend to only think and care in our own perspective and ignoring the needs of the people around us. Luckily for me I have the choice to choose to study the course that I want but still I am under the shadow. I am still living the expectations of other people. People are expecting me to be academically excellent, people are expecting me and believing in me that I am the child who’s going to bring honor and pull up my family. But seriously I am sick of those tag lines, because the real me just want to be carefree and be the wild child. I am actually afraid to graduate because people are expecting me to have the excellent job and to graduate with honors. In many times I just wish to be the dumb girl and no expectation at all and then one day I’m going to shock them with my success than to be the present nerdy girl who worries a lot about her future. To get away from that pressure I intentionally enrolled myself at the summer class, because with that I am disqualified for graduation honors. I know it is an awesome feeling and a great achievement to graduate with flying colors but I just can’t handle it when I don’t get a good job and people would start saying like you graduate with blah blah blah and here you are blah blah blah. Well I can’t deny that I am still thinking of what are they going to say and think of me but I just want to get loose, I just want to cut of their expectations on me because I want to be like Rancho who is just enjoying every minute of his life.

3 idiots (II)

I cried and at the same time laughed at many scenes and one of it is when Rancho and Pia rushed Rajus’ father on a scooter. Rancho was truly a friend they didn't even study for their final exam because according to Rancho, there are a lot of exams but there is only one father. The three idiots stood by each other. But in their exam day Pia woke them up and told them Raju’s father is in good condition and that they need to take their exam. They were very late and virus didn’t accept their papers So what Rancho did is that he asked the professor if he knew them and the Virus said he did not, so Rancho mixed up the papers he arranged and they run. On the revelation of the results, Farhan and Raju quickly looked on the results they were on the last positions and they thought Rancho didn’t make it but they later found out that Rancho ranked first.

We learnt something about human behavior that day, it feels bad when a friend fails, but it feels even worse when he comes first.

Hahahha this is true. I also felt this some time long ago. I’m not quite sure on why but I guess it maybe because again we all drive for success, we aimed to be the first and even with friends there is a secret competition.

When Raju was in coma because he jumped off the building after virus let him choose between himself and Rancho to get expelled. Rancho was truly a dear friend; he did everything he can do for the recovery of Raju. He did everything to make him life and to motivate him. He never quit with Raju .

When Pia knew that his father virus is going to make the final exam to assure that Raju will fail, she immediately gave the office keys to rancho to steal the questionnaire. Virus found out that they sneaked in to his office and copied the questionnaire and so he expelled the boys. At the same night, Pia blamed his father for the suicide of his brother. She said it was not suicide but murder and ran away from home. It was a stormy night and Pia’s sister is going to give labor but there were heavy floods and they can’t go near to a hospital. Rancho, Farhan, Raju together deliver the baby with the help of a cobbled-together Vacuum extractor.

This was also a hilarious and a very touching scene. The three idiots were delivering the baby of Virus’ daughter.  The baby didn’t cried and no response was manifested but after saying all is well the baby cried. All is well -These three words always came out form Rancho. He said that his hears easily got scared and so he taught it to be strong by saying all is well. Yes it is in the state of mind, believe that everything is fine and definitely everything is at ease. Just let it flow and don’t stress yourself because if you take too much control you easily got frustrated. And this is one thing I would carry on, just let it flow, All is well.

Virus was their main villain and that day they were all prepared to abandon the school but Virus gave rancho the pen, the pen which symbolizes excellence.

In the end Raju.Fahran,pia and Chatur found where rancho is and he had his own school. Well Chatur was boasting all his success and mocked at Rancho and suddenly beg when he found out that rancho was the scientist named Phunsukh Wangdu .

Farhan Qureshi: Today my respect for that idiot shot up. Most of us went to college just for a degree. No degree meant no plum job, no pretty wife, no credit card, and no social status. But none of this mattered to him, he was in college for the joy of learning, he never cared if he was first or last.

So Rancho was not the real Rancho, he was actually the son of the gardener of Real Rancho. He ranked no.1 and got the degree for the sake of the real rancho. He didn’t mind this at all because he was fond of learning.

Rancho was truly an exception. He got a degree for the sake of another person. Amongst all he was the one brave enough….Oh how I wish I could just be like him go to college just for the joy of learning and not thinking of the future. It’s hard no to think of it, maybe because of competition. In the film Virus also said that it is either you compete or die, yes it is true in this world it is a matter of survival and to be able to survive you need to compete. Everyday is a competition, it may not be tangible but in every sense there is a competition. A simple argument with your parents, siblings, friend or teacher is a competition of ideas and statements. Here in the Philippines, there is a massive competition in riding the jeep. Some passengers would run just to get on the backseat. Internally all of us wanted to be the best, we may say we don’t care about winning but at the end of the day we are always thinking and hoping of our own success. Life is a maze, there are other ways, there are different patterns, one may get lost, one may gracefully step the right track and one may meet a dead end. Life is full of options and we always have the chance to choose which button to press.

 He was an idiot because not everyone agreed to his ideas and convictions. Truly rancho was a genius no because he knows every word in a book, not because he had studied the different theories, not because he solves any mathematical problems but because he was able to move people. He was able to change the paradigm of the people living in conventions. He was able to motivate and inspire his friends and that marks a true genius.

Rancho: Pursue excellence, and success will follow pants down.

A girl before the mirror I

I have always loved Art. I don’t have my own masterpiece but I call my self an artist. I can say I am artistic in a sense that I've got a unique way of thinking and expressing my ideas.

Who doesn't love art? What’s in art that it shouldn’t be love? Art is irresistible

Some say art is indefinable...art is mutable, some say art is inclusive some say it is merely an ambulant idea Art is beauty, an enshrouded memory, a bear witness, a manifestation, expression ,imagination, reality.. Above all art is a wonderful creation

I just wish that I have the natural skills and talents for Art. I adore paintings and have always took a long time in decoding its hidden interpretation...I must say maybe I have fallen for mystery...For me art is a mystery but it doesn’t need discovery cause it freely divulges its own identity, it just need an open mind to brood over .

It’s my pleasure to reckon at depictions, colors and kaleidoscopes always make my mood. But I must be honest I've got no hands for art but I have my heart for Arts. 

It could be probably true that there is no one ugly, no one unskilled, no one is dumb, and no one isn't good it is just many are lazy. Well, I've known some friends who have incredibly created art because they had dedicated their time in enhancing and keening their knowledge and potential of art. Well if it happened to then, maybe the gift of art will arrive soon in my temple. Hahahhhahha...truly I just got frustrated every time I'm trying to do some art piece. But yes I am still an artist...hahhaha

Looking at arts, inspires me...it justifies my existence, some are only shades, some of different strokes, some are formed by combinations. And some puzzles. Abstract is the type of Art I praised most. Well among all art, this is the genre in which I could at least excel... kekekekek...I do abstract works because it is the easiest type of art I could do...I mean as a person also I would just like to freely draw what I want , I don't like much details and I want to confuse my audience.hahhaha...Not really confuse but I want to keep them thinking, I want to make them curious...Abstract for me is just like carefree, you could put whatever you want, disorganize it and wallah you have some beauty out of it. 

My favorite painters are michelangelo, juan Luna, davinci and of course Pablo Picasso.....the first time I've heard of the name Picasso it immediately made me think of a harlequin...Picasso it is a colorful name indeed. In some of my poems that I have written I had mentioned Picasso, well I knew only a little about his life but I found him to be profound, romantic and liberal.

Well so Pablo Picasso is a Spanish painter who spent his adult life in France and yes he was sort of a rebel in his teen age life. Picasso was married twice and had four children by three women.He actually had a complicated love story. He had a scandalous affair with Francoise Gilot who is the mother of his 2 children...

And most of them became the subjects of Picasso's paintings. Well Picasso's life was much like of a circus and I always wondered what kind of lover painters would be. Since he is a painter could he be more sentimental? Could he be more romantic? Or much more of a playboy a liar? A man who can't be contented on one dish? Well painters paint their own love story. 

Picasso's vocations are very inimitable, in some of his works he made no vivid representations but he let the spectators explore his work, he made them curious. Painters are similar with writers they want to feed the mind, soul and heart. Some may used it to revolt; some used it to declare the truth Picasso once said that Art is a lie that makes us realize truth. Up until now, I’m still thinking about this quote, but yes lies do makes us realize the truth same thing with death made us appreciate life . Yes art maybe a figment of imagination maybe a realm of utopia but every piece of it has a bite of reality. Art maybe false but once it bloomed the truth sets it free.